Do you know? #3

Do you know that feeling when you text someone because you care for that someone but that someone took 1 and a ½ hour to reply , “Nope, y?” yeah. That feeling of self-distruction.

Then, you replied that someone's text asap because you wanted that someone to know that you've been expecting that someone's text but that someone took another, 2 hour to replied, “yeah, that's cool”. Yeah. That fucked up feeling.

But, you didn't give up just yet. You still wanted to see whether that someone is still interested in having a conversation with you by texting a question relating to that someone's work, but that conversation end just about it because you looks stupid when you ask a thing that you already know. So, yeah. You gave up.

Then, you choose to stop texting that someone to see that someone's efforts and it took that someone, 3 days to text you back. In between that day, you have brain wash yourself not to respond to that someone's text if that someone's text you, you assume that someone got a better person to talk with, you stalk that someone's facebook and yeah. That lousy feeling.

You choosed to tell that someone how you felt about that someone's attitude and that someone said, you are over-thinking and need to lose yourself abit. And you stop texting that someone because you are dissappointed with that someone's respond and you end your conversation just like that. Yeah. That upset feeling.

But you don't want to gave up just like that, so you pretend that you are okay and ask that someone what's that someone is doing the next day and ask whether that someone have watch a movie lately. And when that someone says, “no, because the review are sucks” so you said, “okay, I was thinking about asking you out for a movie”. And that someone says, “let's watch other movie” and you says, “cool”. That feeling of recovering.

And when the time has come, both of you are awkward. Then, that someone starts to sing out loud and turn the volume high and says, “You are quite today”. T.T yeah. That f*cked up abit.

And when you are at the table, that someone choose to watch “Jackass” on the phone and starts to laugh alone rather than having a conversation with you so, you pretend that you are busy to by scrolling to your Twitter with no internet connection because you haven't top up your phone yet. Yeah. That unexplainable feeling.

After the movie, that someone and you walks to the car and when that someone saw the flower seller approaching, that someone left you behind. Hahaha haha ha.. ehem. That.. that... I don't know how to explain.

And in that someone's car, you've been skipping the track and discussing about music and when the conversation is going good, you are reaching home, so you gave a wrong direction to get an extra time with that someone. Yeah. That pleasant feeling.

Then, both of you came to your favourite track, Love Song by The Cure and you sing it and both, awkward so you change the track asap. Yeah. That awkward moment.

So, you reaching to your home. You tell that someone something about you which that someone care less and the respond you get are like, “Oh, that's cool”. And that someone left you, without waiting for you to get in the house first. Yeah. That feels, oh. I don't know how to explain.

So, do you know that feeling when you are in between giving up a potential relationship into another friendship and trying your luck again and again just to see if its might works? Yeah. That confusing feeling.

PS : This do-you-know entry is not effective anymore.