Do you know? #1

Do you know that moment when you really want to tell someone about how you felt for that someone but you are afraid that someone will reject it directly so you post a song and update a subtle hint with a hope that someone will actually know what are you trying to say? Yeah. That one.

And if that someone still don't get it, you take that as a rejection and you just kept that unexpressable feeling to yourself until it fade away. The worst part is, you see him in a relationship with someone who, hmm, not worth being with. And you've become his shoulder to cry on when they've broke up and it's impossible for you to say, “Dude, I like you even before she does and I accept you for who you are” because you've afraid he will say, “Babe, you are just like my sister” so you smile and say “you will find someone better”. So yeah. That moment.

Then, you watch your heart broke into thousand of pieces and dissemble it back for someone who deserve it but you can't seems to wait any longer so you try to give your heart to someone who drop by but they've broke it again and you took a lot of time to dissemble it, again.

Yup. So now, you're in that part where you are giving up and you wanted to just enjoy your life and pretending that you don't need any love to live because you have your family and friends and oh, your pets. But the worst yet to come, someone drop by, again, in your life but you don't know whether you should give your heart to 'em or just stick to the plan which is, you don't need any love.

Fuh. Then, you confused yourself even more because you want to be loved but you are afraid of getting hurt again so you are thinking, thinking and thinking until the sun came out. You still don't have the answer so you seek for advice and that advisor said, follow your heart which will say, just give me away. So, you give a try but still, your heart broke into million pieces.

Now, you wants to be heartless. And people will say, “She's single because she is heartless”.

Yeah. So, do you know that moment when you feels like slapping people with a sandle?