I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MADE

*angkat kening sambil bt muka hairan*

apa? owh drawing tu? aku sketch masa aku bosan suatu ketika dahulu. haha illusion of my wonder boy. mata dia mana? ada. tapi aku sembunyikan sbb xmau dia tgk perempuan lain selain aku. haha serabut? ahh... sengaja cari yg serabut mabut. kenapa? sbb jarang org suka lelaki yg serabut. rare katanya. so nnt org xngoratlah dia nih. haha kenapa aku lukis dia senyum? sebab masa nih aku tgh bayang konon aku buat lawak dekat dia. haha apa saja aku nih. merepek xketahuan jadinya. eh selesa pulak blogging dlm bahasa melayu. rasa macam terer. haha terus rasa mcm nak cubit pipi aku kan? sila cubit dengan penyepit ikan bakar okay.

*muka hairan lagi*

apa lagi? owh... confession. aku ada confession nak bt nih. aku sebenar-benarnya dan sebenarnya ku mengharapkan disebalik senyumanmu ituuuu.. okei. sila tampar muka aku dgn kelajuan 180km/j. haha ya..ya..aku mengaku sekarang. aku sebenarnya takda idea nak post apa. haha rasa mcm nak tambah speed tamparan td kan? hee... okay takdak hal. sila tambah kelajuan tersebut sehingga meter pecah. sebelum monitor ampa pecah, baik aku blah dulu. hahaha

hee... matta ne! papaiyo!

It's time for Ramadhan !

Salam and good day,

Hee... almost a week we are in the Holy month of Ramadhan now. I've feel very blessed by The Almighty. Mana x nya, dalam tempoh seminggu nih, Alhamdulillah, Allah s.w.t dah bukak kan mata aku yg blur manjang nih kepada banyak perkara. adoi...laqo nya aku. lalai, cuai suma ada. hee... tapi xpa. masih sempat aku memperbaiki keadaan. Dia bagi aku suka, duka pastu suka balik. Alhamdulillah. aku masih tetap berdiri di atas kaki sendiri tanpa mengharap pada org lain. Masih berfikiran waras! itu paling penting. Syukur Alhamdulillah sekali lagi. hehehe

Rasanya sepanjang kita berpuasa, sehari saja kowt aku berpuasa dengan sihat. The other 6 days aku demam menggigil, batuk macam kingkong, selesema macam unta, dan sora spt budak baru baligh. hahaha sgh buruk ya disini suara saya. tapi aku kebalkan diri dan terus berpuasa. sebenarnya malas nak ganti. lagi pula, sakit sambil puasa nih sama saja. bukan makan sangat. banyak masa dihabiskan dengan berehat dan terbaring ja. haihhh... dan aku amat emo ketika sakit. harap maklum. hahaha aku pun benci mengaku facts itu. huh!

sebelum aku melalut ntah apa2, membebel yang tidak2, adalah lebih baik aku stop kat sini noo. bak kata org kedah, ang toksah dok meqhapu meqhaban sangat baq ang. till then, matta ne!

PS : lagu kt atas 2 by Copeland! title the day I lost my voice. hee...me favarito! ckp byk xmao. dgq ja dendiam. wiu wiu wiu!

Selamat berpuasa dan selamat mengerjakan ibadah puasa!(^__^)

EXPECT NOTHING !

" Don't expect anything in life.

Expectations hurt a lot...

When you don't expect,

every moment is a SURPRISE

and every surprise brings

H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S.! "

Happy and Sad.

In a country called Brain, there lives Mr. happy and Mr. sad. Mr. Happy lives with its family. Mr. Happy smiles everyday. We can barely see him sad or cry compared to Mr. Sad who always portrait a sad and crying face. He live alone in his shallow and gloomy house across the street.

Mr. Sad always stalked Mr. Happy's house to see what are they doing and smiles for. He will feel uneasy when he saw Mr. Happy smiles. The moment when Mr. Happy saw Mr. Sad, Mr.Happy also feels unsteady too. Afraid that it will effect the positive force in his family. Afraid that it might bring sorrow in the house.

One day, a vibration happens. Brain has been effected. The atmosphere changed. The neighborhood was covered with darkness. The air become thick. Mr. Happy and Mr. Sad was in a wonder.

"What's going on? What's happening?"

Then came Mr. Neuron with his bike drop by the side walk and said,

" She failed again. No worries...it won't take long. The Brain will work soon. Mr. Happy, you have to work overtime this week. Mr. Sad, congratulation. You win again."

PS : I don't want to befriend with Mr. Sad but every time when I wanted to find some happiness from Mr.Happy, it always you that I met, Mr. Sad. I can't run or hide from you but at least give me a chance to feel what HAPPY is.

Alarm clock.

There was a table lamp and an alarm clock on a table in a room. One day, the table lamp asked the alarm clock few question.

"What do you like about yourself? All I can see is, people always shut you down, sometimes smack you and you are well lucky enough they didn't throw you at the wall."

The humble square pink alarm clock replied, " I like to see them awake from their dream... I like to hear their voice when they were stretching, those acts can put a smile on me."

"But they don't like your sounds. You've always make an irritating-repeating sound everyday," said the table lamp.

"They may hates me because of that but they will thanked me for my service,"replied the alarm clock.

"Any proof you can give to me?," asked the table lamp.

"Remember how you were bought here?" the alarm clock replied.

"I do but what's that got to do with the proof?" the table lamp answered confusedly.

The alarm clock humbly answered, " I am the one who wakes him up so that he won't be late to grab his favorite table lamp at the year end sales last year."

PS : An alarm clock plays a big role in our life. Appreciate them.

criticism.

[Before blogging, I took a very deep breath]

Immaturity drives some people to act incohorently and sometimes inrrelevantly. As written in few books and mags , it clearly shows that some of us is having a harsh time in coping with criticism.

Well, of course. Who like to be critics? No one like to hear the facts that they are not as good as they thought. But if the critics are made to make you improve and be a better person, it should be taken with an open-heart.

[Again, I took a deep breath through my mouth and forced myself to get a grip so that I could continue this article again]

We should learn to give and take. Its a fundamental skills that everyone should be mastered by now. Whenever people criticise you, perhaps you should take it in a positive way rather than take it in either way. It would kill you by thinking what-not and can build a self-destroyed soul in you that somehow wanted to pay a revenged back to those who dare criticise you. It will never calms you. It will always tries to seduce you to do bad thing. As a second thought, the self-destroyed soul in you is actually the satan. Masya’allah. Repent you must. Get back to the reality you should.

[Another deep breath were taken with my eyes closed. I stared at the monitor and frowned]

Using the right words in delivering a criticism is another important things that some people should take note. Rather than using words that can struck a person, use a better version of you that could be just another behavioural adjustment away. For instant, if someone is messing around with your life, instead of saying, “Move your fucking shit out of my life, you bitch!”, use, “I feel very deep uncomfortable with the things that you’ve done and I hope you’ll understand. We are big enough to differentiate the good and the bad.”

[Laughed at myself and wonder what have gotten inside me until I can be this positive]

I guess, that’s about it. another thing, don’t messed around with people life again and again. They might not fight back, but you’ll never know what they are capable to do.

The Great Escape Part 1

“Oh boy! It’s already 12.30am,” said Fredie to herself. “I’m not going to have enough sleep. Arghh…”she mumbled. She was pissed at herself because she didn’t manage to sleep early. Shortly after that, she’s gone to bed.

The morning comes. Forces her to wake up. As usual, she wake up, tide her bed, and grab the towel and when to bath. The bus arrived as soon as she reaches the bus stop. “Hmm… good! At least I don’t have to do the waiting,” she smiles. The one-hour journey to KL Sentral makes her sleepy.

As the bus stopped to pick passengers at the road side, she was dazzled and all of the sleepy-sense washed out when she saw a boy that she always bumped at gigs, Adrian, who she really looking forward to know, took the same bus. As he walk in, there’s like a wind blow his hair with a light glows behind him. She barely blinks her eyes. He takes a look for a sit and sits right in front of her! The best view ever! “Hi, my name is Freddie. Be my boyfriend,” said Freddie, in her mind, of course!

Her eyes were all at him until a plus-size guy stands in between her view. “Urghhh… Spoil!” she mumbled. All that she can see is just his shoes. “Better than nothing,” she said.

She met her destination. “Please come with me,” she wish alone. Her wish somehow came true when he practically hop out from the bus! She was pleased. He walks right beside her towards the station. Although he doesn’t look or speak a word to her, she’s still happy with it.

Suddenly, she heard a loud sound of car’s break coming from her left side. “Well, I bet he doesn’t hear it because he was plugged to his iPod all the time!” Freddie thinks alone. As they were about to cross the road, came two big men drag Adrian to a van! “Help!!!” she screams her heart out. “Help!!” again and again she screams. “Help me, please!” screams Adrian. Without any hesitation, she ran towards the big guys and start punching them! “Take her with us! She’s making it hard!” shout the driver. From one victim, they doubled it.

She passed out. So do Adrian. They were tied up. Their eyes were covered with black fabric and their mouth also being covered. They can’t scream. They can’t see anything. However, they were tied to each other. A big bang wakes her up. Her eyes were untied. She can see things. She was shocked at first because there was a big hairy man standing in front of her but she was not afraid. “Hahahaha… dumb girl. Get into troubled to help people. Don’t you want to live for another day?” asked the big hairy man. “Let us go!” she tried to scream. But with her mouth tide up, she couldn’t deliver her words clearly.

The big hairy man when out and leave them in the dusty room. Her mouth was untied. And now, she tried to untie herself hand and it wakes the boy up. A loud unclear sound came from him. “Help me? Well, I tried. And I was caught up too. Stop trying so hard. You’re making my hands hurt,” said Fredie. Adrian stopped trying. “I got a knife inside my back pocket and only you can grab it”, tells Freddie. Actually, she is a girl who always be prepared for all possibilities that may happen to her. They were lucky the bad guy does not take it away!

Adrian got the knife. Suddenly, they heard a foot steps. “Silent. Hide the knife!” warn Freddie. “Well, well, well, look who’s awake now. The only son’s of Tan Sri Khadir. You look much fairer up closed… I wish I could scratch that face,” said a man who is wearing white t-shirt, jeans, sneakers, and a shade to Adrian. He was about our ages and got a tattoo on his left arm. He open Adrian’s eyes roughly and pull his hair. “Listen, I won’t hurt you if you listen to us. Don’t you ever try to runaway because if we catch you, we’ll going to shot you. Hahahahahhahahahaha!” said that evil man. “And you, nothing but a trouble. What should we do with you? Shot you? Naaaah… you’ll waste our bullet. What should we do huh? Sell you? I’ll think about that,” the evil man keeps mumbling. It gives her shiver. And it gives her second thought. “Why in the world I jeopardize my life to help him?!” blame Freddie alone.

The evil man called up his friend to look after them in that room. Adrian and Freddie couldn’t continue their attempt to escape. However, Freddie refuses to stop trying as her life was in danger. Time goes by. The so-called guard has fallen asleep. “This is our chance!” said Freddie to Adrian. Both of them try their best to make an escape. Few times their trial was put on postpone as the guard moves his body. Carefully, they continue to make an escape and soon, their attempt has met a success! “Yeah!” whisper Freddie. “Let’s make a move!” said Adrian to her. “But first, we must eliminate this so-called-guard,” said Freddie. She grabs a piece of metal nearby and hit the guard hardly on the neck! “Owh… that’s gonna hurt ya!” Adrian concludes.

They were walking towards the door. Suddenly, the rusty dusty room has fills with awareness! Their eyes were wondering everywhere. “Let’s take this way”, whispered Adrian. For the first time, Freddie feels secured. He grabs her hands and takes her with him. She was happy, at least. Her regrets for trying to save Adrian were washed away. However, the excitement continues. They take the stair. “I wonder where it will lead us,” mumbled Freddie.

Step by step were taken carefully. No sounds were made by them to avoid the bad guys notice their missing. Back in the dusty room, the evil man came and pays a visit. Looking at the so-called-guard lying beside the door make the evil man scream. “Arghhhh… damn it! We lost them! Gathered around!” he screams. “Make everybody find the boy!” he ordered. ‘What about the girl, Boss?” asked one of the follower. “Kill her. She is useless,” he ordered them.

To be continued...